Thursday, April 15, 2010

:)

I hate to sound like every other blog on the internet, but it has been so long since I wrote anything. I am currently waiting to see how my job situation will work out. Waiting to see how our future unfolds and what direction it will take. I don't feel anxious anymore, and I don't feel afraid. I mostly feel excited about possibilities, some more than others.

A few things I would like to get back into doing: painting, reading for fun, studying the Word for connection and promise, going to the gym regularly and enjoying it, journaling, and photography. All parts of my past at some point that have slipped by me recently. I should pick one or 2 and make those a priority, then work my way around to any that really stick out.

I feel right now like I'm in some crazy place with God where He feels close the instant I think of Him. So closely linked to my emotions, so present. I feel like I don't deserve it because I haven't been taking time for Him like I feel I should, but thats not how He works anyway. I want to obey and seek Him out of love and joy, not to get a return. God owes me nothing, including His love, thats for sure.

Thats it for now. Another thing for my list above should be "blogging".